why do i care??

Looking back at my social life, i realized 1 thing..i always care of things tht happen to my friends, family and acquaintance. sometime, even though i don't wana know, they naturally came to me. when i was younger, i did not understand this. But when i became born again, i learned why little by little.

Now, when i said "learned", it doesn't mean that i fully understand this gift. Why would i consider this as gift, when sometime (most of the time) it burdened me? sometime, when i myself was in dilemma or trouble, somehow other's matter seems to be more important. I spend more time, prayer, thinking for others than myself most of the time. there's time i want to stop, but i just couldn't, it just naturally come out from my heart, even though i don't want to.

I really don't want to complaint, but sometime i feel dry, disturbed and burdened by all the matters tht been shared to me. I know my role is to pray for them and i commitedly did. but i wonder is there anybody out there who is praying for me all the time as i did to others who need my support and prayers? I have witness the power of prayer and God's unfailing love answering my prayer for others. I realize that my jug is running empty after pouring out too much all this while..i need refill.

Please friends who cares for me, pray so that i come to my sense again, to understand why do i care so much..Thanks.

God is good all the time!

s.A.d.I.s.T

sometime in this life, so many things came up..unexpectedly. when i was small, i always dream of my future. now, at this stage of my life, married and having a son and in my late twenties..i don't think i live much of this life. i came across so many event and incident in my life that teach me countless lesson. God has bring me through all of it, both good and bad ones.

At this moment, i came across a major, i mean enormous dilemma..even though this dilemma did not happen to myself but i am in it indirectly. my faith was shaken and my heart is heavily burden by this dilemma. never had i imagine anything like this would be this close and it affect my judgement of right and wrong before God. i was devastated. i learn from God the reality of life lived by mere human choice on this earth through this event. God's words and promises has been neglected due to ego and hypocrisy.

I am truly sad, at the moment i can only pray and support the individuals involved in this matter..i dont know what else to do..somehow through this matter, God is teaching and reminding me to live my life by His will, His words, His ways and His wisdoms. I am thankful to U God, who always there for me and lead me to be closer with U.

Awesome God!