Wednesday, December 20, 2006

the season is here again!!



christmas is just five days away..i am more excited this year. this year i'm goin to be extremely busy before christmas..a lot of shopping to be done, preparation to be done and a journey to take "balik kampung". my siblings are all goin back this year..and even my darling is goin back with me. so my house will be full this year plus my just-married sis is gonna bring her husband back. so for the record, this coming christmas gonna be a history in our family. for once in a decade, finally we gather together in a big, complete members of the family :)
i have always dream for this to happen, because it is always i'm the one who was not there, each time my family have gathering, party or reunion. i missed a lot of those, coz i was always away since i was 13 until now.
i'm thankful because i still had fresh memories of my childhood christmas celebration back in my village, because of that, the spirit of celebrating christmas back in my village keep burning in me each year the season come. part from that, meeting my grandmother is priceless to me, coz during my childhood, i was so close to her. i have always miss her, no matter how far i went to study or work.
well can't wait for it..anyway my holiday begin this saturday until next year. till then guys, have a merry christmas and a joyful new year! God bless you!

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

devotion


i like devotion..what i mean by devotion is a time alone with God while reading His words, praying and communicating with God. living in this world with burdens on our back is hard. But God lift up the burden for us if we let Him.
one online devotional material that help me a lot is the 'our daily bread'. when i was still studying, i subscribe to the quarterly booklet, and RBC send me the booklet of our daily bread for free. it went on for years until i finished my study. nowadays, i did not subscribe anymore, but thanks to God for the internet, i got to read it online everyday.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

wedding bliss

last week was the real deal. i reached kl on wednesday, when i reached my bro's house it was around 8pm already..as always kl was jammed and raining..i was soaked. anyway, Thanks to God, i'm still very familiar with the place and the public transport.
the whole familiy except one of my brother were ther, getting everything ready for the wedding. my sis couldn't care less of every single details she need for the holy matrimonial. beside, it is us the family who are always checking with her if everything is ready...
well, on the 2nd, as early as 5am, we were up and my youngest sis was the first to take shower, hehhehe..she 'potong' the bride's turn. but later on, i was the first to get dress..while the beautician getting the bride's face and hair done. my nephews were next in my list to be dressed. i grab both of them, do their bows and vest and finally their hair.
then i became the make up artist, putting make up on my youngest sis, eldest sis, cousin and mom's face. i was already sweating, in my bride's maid dress. then i help my sis with her bridal gown..after she was done, it take not more than 2 minutes for the beautician applying makeup on my face. then i get my hair done, after that we are off to the church.
we reached the church right on time, then the ceremony begin, my sis and her new husband look wonderful. both families have the same expression of joy and thankful after the wedding bow were said and rings were on each of the bride and bridegroom's hand. at last they were married :)
after the holy matrimonial was done, we have wedding reception at the church itself. during the reception, we exchange thanks to all family members, friends, colleagues and church members who were there to witness the wedding. the food was nice, i like the sweet and sour fish, and how i wish my brother Peter, my brother in law Stephen and my boyfriend Denny were there joining us that day.
But for the bride and the bridegroom, it was the perfect day for both of them. i am so happy to see my beloved sis with her husband that day, coz all this while i hv been dreaming of their wedding, something that the whole family has been waiting for. i am sure that my father is very proud of his dauhgter. and he got only two more unmarried dauhgters hahhaha..well next one is coming dad..hehhehe

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

nah..waiting is too much!

i learned something yesterday, sometime waiting just cost you too much..
too much of your time..
too much of money..
too much emotion..
too much worries..
too much uncertainty..
too much thoughts..
too much prediction..
too much sweats..
too much talks..
too much pressure..
too much hope..
too much patient..
too much tensions..
too much doin nothing..
too much doin everything..
in the end, there's is only two results of waiting..the price of all the above..joy and frustration. you get joy when you got what you have been waiting for and it's worth waiting for. but frustrated, when u gain nothing after waiting for so long..(remember that it's never been short for those who are waiting, a minute can be like an hour)
so for me, i only wait for something that is worth waiting for, and sorry to the unworthy..i wont waste all of the above just for the sake nothing..hehehehhe..some friends says i'm too realistic, sometime i couldn't deny that, but i do have visions too, which is a realistic vision..hahahahha, i'm aware of probability, well i would rather calculate it first.

so friends, make sure you know what are you waiting for...have a nice day!

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Enlightened by the rain..

Rain fall down..coldness surround the earth..
in the rain, I begin to think clearly..I realize that I have not try hard enough. day to day, I feel burden pressing my back. all this while I think and blame other thing, but in reality, it's all me. Now that I know, I want to make right. I learned a lot already from my past, my failure and hindrance.
my mistake has now hunting me, urging me to try harder, work harder and become wiser. sometime i feel helpless, i wanna scream. But each time God calms me..i'm thankful. i'm just human, sometime i do right, sometime i do wrong. it's a matter of choice. i need to increase my IQ level so i won't choose a wrong choice.
now that i know, i need to change, be a better person, get a better career, and live happier than ever..

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

turn left, turn right

i watch the movie before..quite interesting..well actually the movie has nothing to do with what i'm gonna write...
in this month, i have make few applications, now that i got options, i'm confused..somebody help me...hemm..uncertainty...my gudness i hope i'm gud at it.
well i like to gamble, but now i got commitment. as my boyfriend says think before doin something..i need to think really deep on this one. i need to get everything clear in my mind indeed for this one. i guess i want to sleep over it then tommorow come back with my decision..hehhehehhehe
need to go, catch up later..

Monday, November 13, 2006

4 years and counting..

i'm so thankful to God for all that i am today. there has been hick ups all the way, bumps, hills and slope...i believe that God has make me went thru all this so i that i become what He wants me to.

i have run away from Him so many time, yet He is there by my side all the time, never letting me go. i am now free again..

last friday nite, my heart was broken, and i was in great fear, i went into my bedroom, closing the door behind me, and i cry so hard, i can feel that my heart is crushed so as my soul. i crashed to ground zero. i cry to God..i cry all my heart out and pour everything to Him. Gently He comfort me, "now it left only you and Me" He said. then i realise that, all the heart broken and hardship i hv been thru bring me heart to heart again with God, exactly what He wants for me to do everyday.

still in tears, i ask Him "what do you want me to do Lord?" then He told me "Go to the church this Sunday" in my heart i told Him, ok i will go. Then i ask Him again, "how about other thing..my worries, my health and my problem?" He firmly said "i will take care of that for you" and i said "ok".

On Sunday, i went to the church with my boyfriend. and it is not coincident that we are having holy communion. holy communion is also actually a reminder to me for the promise i hv make to God 5 years back. So i begin to understand that God is reminding me of the promise, during the worship, slowly i was fill with holy spirit, then i can feel that God is annointing me on my forehead, then my heart, then my whole body. i feel my spirit is refreshed.. i thought that's it..this is why God ask me to go to church, but as told by the bible, we can't think as God think..the preacher yesterday teach about components of human which he continue from past week. then at the end of his teaching, he get us all,i mean the whole congregation to kneel down before God and repent for all the sin we have commited. so that day, all of us, the body of the Christ being unite in repentance. i believe everybody is being touch by God personally yesterday. and for me, God has given me a chance to start again..

and yesterday was also happen to be the anniversary of my relationship with my boyfren, well thanks to God for blessing us all this years. both of us has experience joy, happines, good time together and not forgeting bad times, problem and troubles which is normal in a relationship. But God is with us, we hope that our relationship will be a blessing to others too.

Glory to God in the highest!

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

spectaculars are back!!!

WORLD POOL CHAMPIONSHIP 2006 (click for official website)

now it has been four days the world pool championship happening in the Philippines, the qualifying tournaments is now stil on with eight groups competing.

i am getting crazy for this game, my favourite is from the Philippines itself, the 'magician' Efren Reyes, as he is so brilliant. not forgetting good looking Mika Immonen, plus Bustamante who is also a promising player. i hope this time the championship will be more interesting than the last time.

anyway, the young Wu chia ching (last World champion) is around too, sure the heat is getting higher :)

i know i'm not alone who crazy bout pool, friends, care to discuss bout this, do drop me msg ok!

Monday, November 06, 2006

for a living....


what do you do for a living?

what a familiar question isn't it..i believe most of my graduate frens out ther have a job or as we like to call it...career. i found out thru a lot of people, 8 out of 10 young grads are not satisfied with their post or job they are holding at his moment. and that also happen to me during my 1st year of working. i figure out now why do i feel that way..actually it is a transitional process for a person like me trying to fit in as a working adult. part from that, it is a transition from a fresh grads to fit in executive position which actually requires more of your brain and skill than during your study time.


But most of all, it is actually your choice of career and your personality. i learn from Holland's Theory of Career Choice(click to learn more) that you will likely find satisfaction in career that you choose that fit to your personality.

I couldn't agree more to this theory because the truth is happening to me now, a lot of people asking me, why am i choosing my current career,which is not related to what i have study back in university. my answer as always, this job suite me best and couldn't do better in other field. i choose my career that fit my personality, not my degree.

And i would enhance my skill and knowledge in this field ;)

Thursday, November 02, 2006

uhukk..uhuk...uhukk..

my throat is so itchy, i feel uneasy in the chest, ummph cough come and visit me again.. my boyfriend and i both get bad cough for the past five days til today, he has been trying cough syrup, fisherman's friend, hacks and sterpsil to ease the sore throat. well i try that too.
on tuesday, my staff noticed that my cough is so bad, he came to me and tell me of natural cough remedy:

1. get juice out of two lime or limau kasturi
2. mix it with a teaspoon of soy souce
3. drink it straight away.
then i found this -> Natural Cough Remedy

another natural home cough remedy, few tips that u could use and it's right there in your kitchen. so we might not need to go to pharmacy or clinic to get medicines for cough next time :)

have a nice day without cough!

Thursday, October 26, 2006

myvi make it!

last weekend trip was amazing!

The adventure began at the junction of miri-bintulu road toward off road sungai arang heading to marudi. muahhahahhahahha...i don't know what i was thinking at that time, grab my guts and just do it! denny check for assurance with a long look right in my face, i was full with spirit, excitement and doubts at the same time. go for it girl..i said to myself in my heart. so the journey started...
everything went smooth and we manage to reach marudi safe and sound. actually, when first my car hit off road, rubbles, dirts, bump, mud was all the way long, up and down the hills and slope, my mind was actually hurt thinking that it might damage the car. then when that passed, i was so relieved and after checking everything is in good condition.

But it was only half the journey, we need to return back to bintulu using the same road. it was 11am, the weather was fine, we prayed before we started the trip returning back. after crossing 2 river by ferry, the real battle started, but it was still okay until we reach 2/3 of the road, before we could pull on second thought, we drive thru a wet, muddy and sliperry road. just seconds after that, it was totally out of control. ryan was on the wheel, stepping on the brake trying hard to control it, front tyres sink into the mud. denny went out of the car, trying to push us back on the track, but little by little we are actually slipping to the side of the road and we could actually crashed againts the rocky hills beside us or hit another stucked 4WD in front of us.

The tense was getting higher,and ryan began to panic, my heart was beating so fast, in the middle of the chaos, i could not stop praying in my heart, ryan gripping the wheel and brake and gear, while denny was outside trying and pushing the car to get on track, then my prayers was heard, one guy came helping us out, his car was still at the top of the hill and he went down to survey the road. With his and Denny's help, ryan managed to get on track and drive us down the hill out of the mud. and just like that, everything was back to normal. ryan and denny went to help others who still stucked. after exchanging thanks and handshake, we were ready to continue the journey, before we leave an elder guy note "boleh tahan myvi ni..baguslah.." at this, i felt proud of the car and can't help smiling.

For me that was quite an experience, i will never forget tht. i thank God for He is always there to protect us along the way, and brought us home safely. well, no doubt i will do it again in future :)

Friday, October 20, 2006

so long...

Time has been passing so fast, everything feels like just happen yesterday, and it has been quite a while i havent blog. updates since last blog was:-

1. my car now as good as new after the incident
2. my mom and lil' sis came and visit me last two weeks
3. i volunteered myself to be my sis biz partner,juz put my name in anyway, i'm doin nothing ;) hehe
4. i'm moving my workstation to new office, more space to myself, isolated from others..ahaks
5. since new workdress applied, i dont have to worry anymore on dozen of choice of outfit i need to wear to work.
6. and it's only a month and a half away from my beloved sis wedding, omigosh..i hvnt book a flight ticket to go there.

yesterday, i surf my ol' church website-> www.graceserve.org

they have been improving so much since i left. i miss the community,anyway, i registered as a member and get to listen to praise n worship mp3 on the web. i love the song titled 'satu' by MGMF if i'm not mistaken. if u got time to surf, no harm clicking the link, and find out for yourself what's there.

another thing i would like to promote is-> health and fitness

i get a lot of helpful tips on health and fitness from this site, hope it help you too. especially body workout, i use that to get the shape i wanted for my body, the illustration and instruction make it so easy for me to start all those workout at home and save me instructor and gym fees. guys and gals, dont hesitate to try it.

alrite, that's for today, have a nice day and God bless!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

wat a week..

since i send my beloved buddy to the workshop, i felt sorry for him. anyway that was my mistake, and really feel bad bout it. wish i could turn back time and redo the reverse..now it's done.
this morning, worst..my bf bike won't start. i go for back up, called my staff and ask his help to pick me up. I'm so thankfull to have such a good staff. anyway, he did help me a lot ever since i'm here.
i follow up with the workshop, they said it is not done yet. but i'm aware that it's gonna take few days. but i deeply wish i can get it out of there within this week.

superhero Test

Your results:
You are Robin
























Robin
80%
Green Lantern
80%
Hulk
70%
The Flash
70%
Superman
65%
Spider-Man
60%
Supergirl
50%
Wonder Woman
50%
Batman
30%
Iron Man
30%
Catwoman
20%
Young and acrobatic.
You don't mind stepping aside
to give someone else glory.


Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

baby blue...

the colour that attract me all the time, it look so soft and calming, i like it so much and actually make my day :)
i like to have all my thing in blue colour, especially baby blue, but in reality, most of important thing that i own was in different colour, not blue as i always wish when i was younger. for example, my car, house, curtain, bedroom...last time when i was young, i dreamed to have everything in blue, now blue doesn't represent me anymore. i'm afraid that obsession of blue colour is fading from me.
maybe as i grow old, i found more variety in life so as my colour choice, well... people change over time i guess. last night my boyfriend said something that wake me up from my little fantasy world, he said nothing will remain the same except Christ Himself. That is the different between the Creator and the things He creates.
i hope that more people realize this fact and start seeking and looking for eternal/heavenly things rather than chasing after things that will fade away as the perfume scent blown away by the wind and so as everything that we fancy most here on earth.

have a nice day & God bless!

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

life to value

early at 8.23am i receive a call from my boyfriend today, well that is not ordinary him. i got an instinct that something happened, then it's true when he break the news that his cousin passed away after involving in an accident. sadness surround me for a while, when he further tell me that the deceased left 2 small children behind. immediately i ask for an excuse from my boss then rush to pick him up and send him to bus terminal where he get on an express bus going back to his hometown where the funeral will take place.
after a brief goodbye, i drive back to office, on the way i was praying for his journey and the family who mourn for the lost. Deep inside my heart, there's a chilly feeling that urge me to feel worry, fear and sad. i realize then everytime when i heard or attend funerals of my relatives when they passed away, i have that same feeling. then i guess it is normal to feel that way. But now i know the truth, actualy i feared losing the one i love especially those who are important to me. i feared that they will be gone also like the others, especially those who died at young age.
I learn that from this, it is very important for us to actually appreciate and enjoy companion of people around us, as they might be gone anytime and we don't know when. i myself could not imagine how would it feel if i lost somebody that i dearly love, but i know some of my friends out there been through that, even some of them have share it with me. From them i learn that to face the truth the person is gone is actualy hard but the hope and legacy that he/she leave behind that make us strong again to go on with our life.
Once, my boyfriend told me, we should not grieve for the person who has been gone, instead, we should appreciate his/her life contribution to us, remember all his/her achievement as a hope for us to move on and learn from his/her life. i will always remember that.

Monday, August 28, 2006

"happy hour"

Last saturday nite, the place where i work organized an event which i'm involve as a member of the working committee, the event called "merdeka 49ers happy hour session" in conjunction with the coming national day end of this month. well nice to have an event like that to bring people together and having fun. happy hour indeed, for the participants, but not exactly for me..well it is an unpaid overtime for me to just attend and do my part to put the event together..tiring anyway.
I dont know if i ever have happy hour in this last few years..hardly remember, but definitely i have always had Joy Hours even at this very hour in my life. i guess you know what i mean, when you have God in your heart, joy is always there too.
Anyway, i believe different person has different way to have fun or to spend time just to get a good laugh or to release their tension. But i would like to promote healthy way to spend a quality time to entertain ourself or our family, maybe some of my tips below will help:

a) for family
1. choose an activity which can get your little ones involve too
2. make sure the activity are with low risk of injuries especially for your kids
3. consider daytime activity, to avoid disturbance in the kids' sleeping hours, as night time activity normally tend to end at late night.
4. pick a bright and peaceful environment, which is actually good for children
5. always consider activity which actually bring the family closer while educating the little ones, so that the time that you spend together is beneficial to your family.

b) For individual / couples / groups
1. Try to pick activity which you will really enjoy without or with minimal tendency to get hurt/regret/sick afterward.
2. vary your activity, so that you could try different/new thing rather than to stick to only one activity each week (as you might get bored doing the same thing everytime)
3. save a value of yourself so that you won't involve in something stupid which will ruin your life.
4. There's no limit to have fun but be rational while having it.
5. spend your time as you want by spending your money wisely for it.

that's all for today, hope you have a good life ahead and having fun in a healthy way ;)

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Lifestyle....Did u get it right?

Huh..Lifestyle...This one actually bring a big question mark in my head, wat's so significant bout lifestyle towards one's life? Do I need to make my life stylish enough so that I live my life in style? ahaks.. confused
but the fact is, yes your lifestyle gonna affect your life (bet u got confuse with my sentence) what I mean is, the way you live your life create your lifestyle. You are a designer of your own life. well that's sound like the power is in your hand, and it's up to you to design your lifestyle.
actually, your lifestyle can be good or bad depends to all other human being around you to judge it. sometime, you think that your lifestyle is so good until you don't want it to be change, and sometime you are dying to change your lifestyle. in our daily life, we hardly notice that some (*not all) of the things or way we lead our life are actually bad habits or slowly destroying ourselves because we are so used to it.

my tips to know how good is your lifestyle and improving it:
1) list down your daily/ routine activities even every small details on a paper
2) test it, whether it is destroying or improving your life (tick to improving and cross for destroying, be honest please..)
3) now, stick it on your mirror or your notice board or your fridge
4) reduce doing the one you cross (u can also replace it with new good one), and work on the one you tick
5) lastly, make sure you are happy and healthy

alright frens, hope you have a healthy life, and if you don't, there is always a room for improvement..hehehhehe sounds like Tim Allen
all the best and have a nice day ;)

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Nabbed

my day start very early today, i woke up at 3.15am at first for a glass of water, this hazy weather really getting into me..(today's report API reach 110-still unhealthy) after that, i climb back to bed, try to get more sleep...but my journey into deep sleep was somehow interrupted by sounds...
i heard thuds from next house, at first i thought it's only my left side neighbour going to work driving his trailer which is huge, regularly make lot of noise. but the thuds become louder and goes on until it sound weird. then i check out my clock, it's still early 4.50am..then i realize the sound came from my rightside neighbour house.
i got up and peek thru my window, at first hard to see anything but blurry lights outside my neighbour house, i grab my spec, and now i can clearly saw a police car parked outside my neighbour house. few minutes later, few police vehicle swarm in the area outside my house. then i saw few cops went out from the house, later i saw my neighbour being handcuffed and lead by a cop to one of their car.
now positive that my neighbour being nabbed in this police ambush, but it left me with a lot of question in my mind, especially, what has he been involve in until it take more than 10 cops armed with big guns to take him down. then back to reality...OMG!! i've living next door to a criminal! hahhahhahaha..feels like living in new york (i watch too much CSI:NY hehehhhe)

anyway, one thing i know since day 1 they move in next house, they do bring troubles to me, especially when they know i'm living alone, a lot of them all guys living in that house and lot more come by just to loiter there at night. they disturbed me almost everytime i went in and out of the house, stalking me from inside of their house, teasing, and lots more, which slowly stop recently when they realise the frequent present of my boyfriend at my house. adding to that list, many people suspect them to be responsible of my house break-in incident last May. for that incident, thank God i did not lost lot of thing.

well frens, be aware and alert of your surrounding, especially where you live, and don't forget to ask God for protection, coz we never know when bad thing gonna happen to us. i am thankful for the cops has nabbed the bad guy, and no matter what they did, just take them out of my neighbourhood.

have a nice day!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Huuaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh

uh oh...is that so obvious that i'm sleepy? hemm well that's me in the middle of the day, dont bother me.

anyway, weather outside there is not good, hazy urrrghh. air pollution index (API) has reach 107 in my area. (which mean very unhealthy -for those who doesn't know the meaning of the API reading ahaks....) i hardly stand the hot, smoky air that i rather be in office and not goin out for lunch. my staff complaint of the hot weather each time returning from site..hehhehe well thank God, i dont need to go site visit today...ok, now let me share tips to survive this weather..
a) Limits outside activities
b) Drink a lot of plain water
c) Stay inside and turn on Air-conditioner
d) For those travelling with bike, put on mask ( can get it from pharmacy)
e) Dont do open burning, its gonna worsen the weather
f) Last but not least, pray for rain...hehehhehhe

alright, hope u still enjoy your day no matter how bad the weather is...

God bless all!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Fly away...

i wana fly away...
close my eyes..close my ears..see nothing and hear nothing..
escape to a peaceful dream..
give me just a little while...
but that is just fantasy..i cant
open my eyes..this is reality..oh..how hard
my heart are torn into pieces..
my head hurt..
banging inside..gonna explode...arrrrggghhhhh
alright..that's it, full stop.

**all of the above is how i feel when im driving in stress..hahahhahha..like nonsense ;)

Thursday, August 03, 2006

a Tribute to....

in the previous few hours, i had a drink with my colleague in the pantry of our office, we had a conversation bout personal relationship, my colleague came out with a question that is actually testing my commitment with my lover, without realizing it, i begin to discuss bout my relationship with my colleague and she make a simple comment bout it. then after that i went back to my place, thinking back bout what we've talk...i decided to write this;

A tribute to my lover, my testimonial bout him.

kind, loving, caring
ambitious, high spirit, commited
full of life, full of laugh, full of understanding
inspiring, devoted, faithfull
stubborn yet tolerance
hardheaded yet warm
strict yet passionate
not a man of words..hardly in words..but full of gesture, act and affection
reliable leader, unique and have very own way or solution
resist to be understand yet irresistible to love
full of crazy ideas and thoughts yet serious in life and career
last but not least,
pride and passion are all for God, and all that he loves around him

i appreciate every moment i have with my lover, frens out there, keep supporting us in prayer..thank you so much. God bless You n have a nice day ;)

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

so shocking and tragic...

early in the morning, i was told by my colleague, a royal family lost their sister in a tragic bloody murder scene...<Royal Tragedy>
my reaction to that was..."OMG, how could that happen?" deep in my heart, i feel sympathy to the family and their relatives.
then, few minutes before noon, the same coleague told me another shocking news...a famous actor which host my mom's fav game show died <Actor Hani Mohsin dies>
then my reaction to that was like..."you are not jokin rite?"
the news at first sound like unreal to me...further more he is only 43 yrs old and just like yesterday still seen him on TV show, and today...he was gone.
well frens, moral of the blog.....live today as it is gona be your last day of your life..this msg is basically for myself too. Thanks God for reminding me.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Friday.....................

morning everyone, today i woke up late..but i manage to get ready as fast as i could...rev up my engine...guess my car is crying heeee...so sorry buddy..but i need to be at the office on time..well my new boss practise flexi-working hours, u can know now i hate to go back late from work.
last month, he noticed tht some of the staff failed to punch in at the right time, which mean haha...they are late...almost everyday...lack of discipline and commitment towards working hours, as he phrase it in the meeting. And he gave me something to work on actually, coz its my job to clear this unwanted or unpleasant practise by my staff...uuuhhh..sound simple rite..but actually its a big challenge, plus these guys are way too mature from myself...like 20-30 years older..and been working here forever...but i believe, a leader should lead and the rest shall follow...my boss himself is a good example..he always be in as early as 7.10am and the second one to reach office after him is myself at 7.15am, then after 2 weeks a clear change in my staff's time card improving excellently, thanks to my boss who actually made my work easier by being good example and i know my enforcement and memos won't get results so fast like this one did.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Lost...indescribeable.......

stuck at a point...not likely gonna be in cool list of my life. im like a balloon with so much pressure from inside, and im gonna explode...well, the more we dreams and ambitions we have in our life, the more responsible we gonna get. i like to challenge myself, but i need a break....................................................................ahh..a cup of coffee save me from making this blog space a victim of my unruly mind (when im tension only hehehe..)

moral of the blog, frens out ther, when ur brain are fully loaded...take a break..please..for the sake of your mind health.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Share of thought

in this early morning, I'm so grateful that I'm still alive and well in the greatness of God's love. Thank you Lord for giving me another wonderful day..Well after a long while there is something remind me the importance of holiness in our daily life. Last night, I make a long distance call to a friend I know from my previous church, we have a long chat about ministry, activities, all lot more other stuff..Then the topic lead to holiness, so many young people like myself take holiness for granted or doesn't even care bout it, actually it impact a lot of aspect in our daily life, and most important is consequences of ignoring to keep ourselves holy leads to sometime major destruction of one's life. I hope that all my fellow friends out there and myself will always keep ourselves holy in front of God. Take a while to say this prayer together with me,
" Father in heaven, forgive us Lord for our unholy acts throughout our days, help us Lord to keep ourselves holy in front of You, guide us today right at this moment to live according to your way and keep us from temptations. In your name we pray, Amen."

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

how ironic....

Pressure on multi-faith Malaysia (click to read the article)
sometime issue like this is an eye opening to our community, so that we can live more harmony and peacefull, in my opinion, im quite agreed with this article, the truth that happen in our social community..i'm hoping that the authorities will be more sensitive to those non muslims religious needs. i believe that all the non muslims are aware that islam is the official religion of Malaysia, but freedom to practise other religion is always part of the constitution or Perlembagaan Malaysia, all this while we are very thankfull to live in a such unique country where people from different race and religion speak the same language and share same thought, and even celebrate other's festivals such as hari raya, deepavali, chinese new year and christmas together.. i hope that this will continue and learn more to respect each other's believes and culture.


http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/4965580.stm

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Mark 14:38 NLT

Keep alert and pray. Otherwise temptation will overpower you. For though the spirit is willing enough, the body is weak."

blessed be all those who trust in the Lord and Keeping Faith in Him
Have a nice day Friends!

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

The Story Factor

Some people spend a lifetime trying to understand the Bible. Others reduce it to a few basic principles.

In Walk the Line, a film portrayal of country singer Johnny Cash, a conversation between two young brothers suggests another approach. During a reflective moment, just before a tragic accident changes their lives, the boys are lying on their beds. Jack is reading his Bible when Johnny asks, “How is it that you read and remember all those stories in there?” Jack responds, “J. R., I wanna be a preacher someday, so I’ve got to know the Bible front and back. You can’t help nobody if you don’t know the right story to tell them.”

Jack’s desire to know a story for every occasion might seem boyishly naïve. Or it might sound like one side of a current debate. A growing number of scholars and church leaders believe that the unfolding drama of the Bible is at the heart of its life-changing power. Others, however, are convinced that focusing on stories, instead of teaching doctrine, has become a trend that is watering down the authority of the Bible.

As in so many controversies, there is truth on both sides of the issue. The Bible is more than romance, mystery, and adventure. Between its covers we also find the laws of Moses, the songs of David, and the letters of Paul. Yet, even the laws, songs, and letters of the Bible have a story behind them.

The story factor of the Bible raises important issues. As the plot of the Bible unfolds, even some things as basic as the Ten Commandments are not given directly to us. The laws written in stone are part of the unfolding drama of God’s relationship with His chosen people. In a similar way, the parables of Jesus and the letters of Paul are also part of what God was doing with a group of first-century people. How then can they be God’s Word to us?
How does God speak through a story?How can any part of the Bible be for us, if all of it tells the story of God’s relationship with ancient tribes, disciples, or churches? How can we say this is God’s Word to us when we are looking over someone else’s shoulder?

Some would answer these questions by saying that the value of narrative lies in its ability to mean something different to whoever hears it. Others would say that while it’s clear that the stories of the Bible are designed to engage both our imaginations and our hearts, they are also written to help us resist our tendency to make the Scriptures say whatever we want them to say. By weaving together people, events, and ideas, the plot and subplots of the Bible provide a context for understanding the author’s intent. Every story tells us something about God and something about ourselves that we will either act on or ignore.

Consider, for instance, the story Jesus told His disciples about a wealthy man’s desire for a return on his investments. According to Jesus, the man divided some of his assets among three workers before leaving on a journey. While he was gone, two of the men invested the money entrusted to them and had a profit waiting for the owner when he returned. The third, however, hid his money “under the mattress” to protect it. The owner was not pleased. He rejected the employee’s excuse by saying, in effect, “You knew that I expect a return on my investment” (Matthew 25:14-30).

In this parable, the employer didn’t tell his workers how to put his money to work for him in his absence. What is clear, however, is that they all knew him well enough to make their own choices as to what they should do while waiting for his return.
What about us? Does the most-published book in the world tell us enough about God and ourselves to enable us to serve Him as we wait for His promised return? Or are we already rehearsing our own excuses?

Imagine saying to Christ upon His return, “Lord, it’s so good to see you. I’ve been so confused. I kept waiting for You to tell me what You wanted me to do. You were so silent. All You left was a book full of someone else’s stories. They were all about people living in a different time and place. I had my own problems. I needed to know what You wanted me to do.”
Can you imagine the Lord saying, “What more did you need to know? You knew what I was like from the stories of My relationship with Adam and Eve, Abraham and Sarah, and Moses and Miriam. You heard how I responded to the prayers and wrongs of David and Solomon. By My involvement in their deeply flawed and troubled lives, you saw that I could walk with you on paths of your own choosing rather than Mine.”

Suppose the Lord continues, “You’re right. The Bible is the story about My relationship with people who lived a long time before you. Every one of those stories told you something about Me and something about yourself. That’s as much as I wanted you to know. I didn’t give you the Bible to answer all your questions. Then you wouldn’t have had to trust Me. I was more interested in telling you stories that would help you answer My questions. Once you knew what I was like and how far I would go to bring people of all nations to Me, would you want to do what you could to help? Would you be thankful for what I had done for you? Would you care that I love you? Would you trust Me to guide and enable you?”

Father in heaven, forgive us for hiding behind what You have not told us. Help us to be like young Jack, who wanted to know from front to back Your book—the stories that tell us what we need to know about You and about ourselves—for the sake of those for whom Your Son died.

animal smart....

World Updates
May 9, 2006

Dolphins, like humans, recognize names

By Deborah Zabarenko

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - Bottlenose dolphins can call each other by name when they whistle, making them the only animals besides humans known to recognize such identity information, scientists reported on Monday.
Scientists have long known that dolphins' whistling calls include repeated information thought to be their names, but a new study indicates dolphins recognize these names even when voice cues are removed from the sound.
For example, a dolphin might be expected to recognize its name if called by its mother, but the new study found most dolphins recognized names -- their signature whistles -- even when emitted without inflection or other vocal cues.
More than that, two dolphins may refer to a third by the third animal's name, said Laela Sayigh, one of three authors of a paper published in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences.
"They are known to produce these individually distinctive signature whistles, like names," Sayigh said in a telephone interview. She said the researchers wanted to know what information in the whistles helped dolphins identify each other's names.
The scientists already knew that dolphins responded to whistles, but wondered if something in the actual voice of the whistling dolphin was making the identity clear, or if the name itself was enough for recognition.
To find out, they studied bottlenose dolphins in Sarasota Bay, Florida. Instead of playing recordings of actual dolphins making signature whistles, the researchers synthesized signature whistles with the caller's voice features removed and played them to dolphins through an underwater speaker.
In nine out of 14 cases, the dolphin would turn more often toward the speaker if it heard a whistle that sounded like a close relative's.
"It's a very interesting finding that encourages further research, because they are using whistles as referential signals -- that's what words are," said Sayigh, of the University of North Carolina Wilmington. "Dolphins appear to be using these arbitrary signals to identify another dolphin."
She stopped short of saying dolphins might have a human-like language.
"I tend to shy away from using the word 'language' myself, because it's such a loaded term," Sayigh said. "I still really feel strongly that there is no evidence for something like our language. (Dolphins) have got the cognitive skills at least to have referential signals."

Copyright © 2005 Reuters

Friday, April 28, 2006

food for the soul..

i got this from RBC..

Abuse of Authority

There is a fine line between the healthy and unhealthy use of power. At any time, even the best of leaders can begin making decisions that increasingly put their own interests before the needs of others.
The misuse of authority, however, is not always subtle. History tells the stories of countless leaders who boldly acted as if their position placed them above real accountability.

Biblical examples of misused power
In Bible times, the sons of Samuel used their appointments as judges of Israel to take bribes, pervert justice, and accumulate personal wealth. Later, God’s choice for the first king of Israel, Saul, abused his power in an effort to kill the man chosen to be his successor. When David became king, he misused the authority of the throne of Israel to commit adultery with the wife of one of his officers. Then David conspired to have Bathsheba’s husband killed.
Centuries later, a little-known church leader named Diotrephes misused his position by denouncing others to elevate himself. He was so protective of his own position that he would not even welcome the apostle John into his congregation (3 John 1:9-10). We don’t know how Diotrephes publicly explained his lack of hospitality. But privately he might have assumed that all he had done for the church entitled him to unchallenged prominence in the group.

The principle and the red flags
In biblical times and now, abuse of authority involves a harmful and destructive pattern of leadership that diverts organizational power for personal use at the expense of others.

A culture of fear. Such abuse of authority thrives in a culture whose people fear one another. Leaders are afraid of losing power. Subordinates know the danger of confronting those in authority. Loyalty is emphasized to distract from what is really happening. Mutual intimidation lies just under the surface of what seems safe to talk about or question.

A culture of confusion. In church or parachurch groups, leaders sometimes use spiritual language that implies they have a private line to God. The result is that the group learns to hear the teaching or prayerful decisions of leadership as if they were listening to God. Such confusion leads to trouble.

A culture of control and exclusion. When spiritual overseers are not held accountable to fair process and well-defined checks and balances, they can impose their will in ways that go beyond their rightful sphere of control. Such leaders may remove a noncompliant person from the group, not for the sake of the organization but as a means to protect their own leadership. By threatening exclusion for noncompliance, leaders can require submission in matters that are more personal than public, more cultural than biblical, and more arbitrary than fairly reasoned. Ironically, abusive leaders often suggest that their own accountability to God places them above criticism and question, without granting the same freedom to others.
In the noise and commotion of such abuse, phrases like “touch not the Lord’s anointed” or “obey them that have the rule over you” are used, not to promote a healthy fear of the Lord but rather an unhealthy fear of men.

A better example
Jesus’ example of leadership is a corrective to such abuse of authority. In His kingdom, leaders think and act like servants. They hear the questions and cries of those who are hurting. They give others the consideration they want for themselves.

In Jesus’ kingdom, elders and deacons do not correct someone else without first working on their own faults (Luke 6:39,41-42). They remember the Lord’s words: “A disciple is not above his teacher, but everyone who is perfectly trained will be like his teacher” (Luke 6:40).

One leader’s inspired counsel
Listen to what one of Jesus’ understudies tells us. Watch for the value the apostle Peter puts on heartfelt service. Note that he wants both elders and church members to serve God not by coercion but because they desire to. Peter writes to fellow elders, “Shepherd the flock of God which is among you, serving as overseers, not by compulsion but willingly, not for dishonest gain but eagerly; nor as being lords over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock” (1 Peter 5:2-3).

Spiritual shepherds are not to “lord it over” the flock of God. Just as overseers, elders, and deacons are not to be pressed into service, neither are they to intimidate, shame, or compel others to serve, to give, or to follow. Even when confronting false teachers, representatives of Christ are not to be authoritarian in style, but “gentle to all, able to teach, patient, in humility correcting those who are in opposition” (2 Timothy 2:24-25).

Sooner or later, therefore, we need to realize that we don’t honor even the most trusted spiritual leaders by believing everything they say. We give them their rightful place when we weigh their words, ask important questions, and dig into the text of their message for ourselves.
The New Testament record of Acts honors the citizens of Berea precisely because they did not passively accept what they were taught by Paul and Silas. Instead, our record of the New Testament church says of the Bereans, “These were more fair-minded than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness, and searched the Scriptures daily to find out whether these things were so” (Acts 17:11).

The implication is clear. God does not give His leaders power and authority to control anyone, but to speak a truth that sets people free.

Father in heaven, please help us to love and reflect the leadership of Your Son. Teach us to follow Him by listening to the questions and cries of the weakest among us, while reserving strong words only for those who are using their authority at the expense of those they have been called to protect.
Father, may those of us who are in supportive roles learn to respect those who are leading, while also learning to think for ourselves. Please give us hearts that are ready to hear Your Word, eager to learn, and ready to express, by our actions, the truth and grace of Your Son.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Da Vinci Code...emmm interesting..



this coming movie ( adapted from the book i guess) has attract a lot of people in the community especially my fellow believers..well read thru on what Mart De Haan says bout the book itself..

Been Thinking About The Da Vinci Code?

By Mart De Haan

A reviewer from Book Sense says, "This is one of those rare books that comes along and makes you question everything you thought you knew about religion, art, and what you were taught in school. It's fast-paced, enthralling, and simply impossible to put down."
The Da Vinci Code begins with a lengthy list of acknowledgments and then a "fact page" designed to leave the impression that the novel is based on careful research of little-known facts.
One of the book's main characters is Robert Langdon, a fictional Harvard professor of religious symbology. Claiming years of research, the professor maintains that for 1,700 years, the church has been covering up the real truth about Jesus. His views are later echoed by a fictional British royal historian referred to as Sir Leigh Teabing who says things like, "almost everything our fathers taught us about Christ is false" (The Da Vinci Code, p.235).

The title of the book comes from the claim that Leonardo Da Vinci—along with other notables like Sir Isaac Newton and Victor Hugo—was a member of a secret society entrusted with the truth about Jesus. The secret of this group (The Priory of Sion) is that Jesus had a daughter by Mary Magdalene. Mary, according to the Priory, was the true Holy Grail who bore the royal bloodline of Jesus on earth. This, according to the professor, is a fact the church will kill to suppress.

What many readers fail to keep in mind is that The Da Vinci Code is fiction. Worse yet, the story rests not on careful research, but on a documented fraud passed off as truth. The idea that Leonardo was a member of The Priory of Sion is based on a document proven by a French court of law to be a forgery and a hoax (The Truth Behind The Da Vinci Code by Richard Abanes, Harvest House Publishers, pp.48-57).

The Da Vinci Code's "alternative view of history" also falsely states that Jesus was not regarded as a God until the fourth century when the Roman emperor Constantine decided it was in his own political interests to unite the empire by giving Jesus "an impenetrable cloak of divinity" (The Da Vinci Code, p.233).

To make the claim plausible, fictional historian Teabing says, "The most profound moment in Christian history" occurred when "Constantine commissioned and financed a new Bible, which omitted those gospels that spoke of Christ's human traits and embellished those gospels that made Him godlike. The earlier gospels were outlawed, gathered up, and burned" (The Da Vinci Code, p.234).

The Da Vinci Code claims that some of the documents Constantine tried to destroy managed to survive in scrolls found in 1945 at Nag Hammadi, Egypt. These scrolls allegedly "highlight glaring historical discrepancies and fabrications, clearly confirming that the modern Bible was compiled and edited by men who possessed a political agenda—to promote the divinity of the man Jesus Christ and use His influence to solidify their own power base" (The Da Vinci Code, p.234).

The ancient texts found at Nag Hammadi, however, were not "lost books of the Bible," as Teabing claims. They were the writings of a mystery religion known as Gnosticism. Gnostics viewed spirit as good and matter as evil. They denied the physical body and crucifixion of Jesus and emphasized a secret knowledge received only by those initiated into the religion. The early church rejected their teachings long before Constantine.

But even if The Da Vinci Code doesn't stand up under scrutiny, is it possible that the Bible has been altered through thousands of years of countless copies and versions? This is the kind of question that is best answered by those who have applied the principles of science to manuscript evidence. Scholars spend lifetimes examining all available manuscripts and fragments of manuscripts. They note and map any variations of spelling or wording that show up in families of manuscripts that have been copied from a common source. In addition they analyze the writings of second- and third-century church fathers who left extensive quotes of the Scriptures they were reading and studying.

On the basis of such research, scholars assure us that our Bible is a highly reliable representation of the original manuscripts. In The New Testament Documents: Are They Reliable, F. F. Bruce writes, "To sum up, we may quote the verdict of the late Sir Frederic Kenyon, a scholar whose authority to make pronouncements on ancient MSS was second to none: 'The interval then between the data of original composition and the earliest extant evidence become so small to be in fact negligible, and the last foundation for any doubt that the Scripture have come down to us substantially as they were written has now been removed. Both the authenticity and the general integrity of the books of the New Testament may be regarded as finally established' " (http://www.worldinvisible.com/library/ffbruce/ntdocrli/ntdocont.htm; The Bible and Archaeology, New York and London: Harper, 1940).

Backed by such evidence, the Bible also remains the all-time bestselling and most widely read book in the world. Challengers come and go. What remain are the words of those who were willing to die for their claim that they personally witnessed the miraculous life, death, and resurrection of the Son of God. One of those witnesses wrote, "For we did not follow cunningly devised fables when we made known to you the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but were eyewitnesses of His majesty" (2 Peter 1:16).

blessed are those who come in the name of the Lord

He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.

2 Corinthians 1:4, NLT

Amen! God bless all the broken hearts..

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

words of the day.....

Stop judging others, and you will not be judged. Stop criticizing others, or it will all come back on you. If you forgive others, you will be forgiven.

Luke 6:37, NLT

have a nice blessed day :)

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

more on PDA

getting the wrong PDA? the above PDA stand for "Public Display of Affection"
well these days...PDA could be healthy..but sometime...irritate other people in community..till issue like below came out...

Stop spying, urges Ong
LUMUT: Local authorities should stop sending their enforcement officers to spy on courting couples, unless there are excessive indecent acts such as stripping.
Housing and Local Government Minister Datuk Seri Ong Ka Ting said the local authorities also should not have their own interpretations on what constituted indecent acts.
“We don’t want local authorities to have their own interpretations and arrest couples who are seen holding hands or putting hands on each other’s shoulders.
“That is not your priority. If a person is found naked in public areas, then they can do something about it, as such an act is intolerable and seriously immoral,” he said.
Ong was addressing the issue of whether hugging and kissing constituted indecent behaviour at the National Municipal Council Conference held at Swiss-Garden Resort and Spa Damai Laut here yesterday.
He said the matter was of grave concern to the public and the Government.
If local authorities were to interpret the park bylaws differently, it would send the wrong message to the outside world, he said.
“Some may say that they cannot have couples holding hands or husband and wife hugging each other.
“If a council head backs such unpopular acts, then you become controversial,” he added.
The Housing and Local Government Ministry, Ong said, would discuss the definition with other agencies such as the Tourism Ministry and the Women, Family and Community Development Ministry before submitting it to the Cabinet for decision, after which it will further be endorsed by the National Council of Local Governments.
On April 4, the Federal Court ruled that the KL City Hall had the authority to enact bylaws to prosecute people for indecent public behaviour.
The Federal Court made this decision when hearing the appeal by two university students who challenged the power of local authorities to enact such bylaws under the Local Government Act 1976 after they were summoned for allegedly behaving indecently at the KLCC Park in 2003.
However, the court also ruled that it would be up to the magistrate hearing the case to decide if hugging and kissing constituted indecent behaviour.
The case is still pending.
Following the Federal Court ruling, several parties including the Bar Council and the Human Rights Commission of Malaysia (Suhakam) wanted the authorities to come up with a clear definition of indecency if there was to be legislation on it.

Words for the day.....

Blessed are those who trust in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank.

Jeremiah 17:7-8, NLT

Thursday, April 13, 2006

splashh!!

huhu...wish i could make a get-away trip to some place like this...water somehow always be the best cure to stress and best element for relaxing....for me...i think a lot of people out there agree with me..what say you??

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

world is getting old...

our world is getting old...read thru the article below, and let get some moral value out of it...
together we make this world a better place :)

Quarter of species gone by 2050, study predicts
‘Global warming will result in catastrophic species loss,' scientist says

By Sara Goudarzi
Updated: 8:26 p.m. ET April 11, 2006
Using several models that project habitat changes, migration capabilities of various species, and related extinctions in 25 "hotspots," scientists predict that a quarter of the world's plant and vertebrate animal species would face extinction by 2050.
A report detailing the projections was released today.
Biodiversity hotspots are some of the richest and most threatened biological pools on Earth. They contain 44 percent of plant and 35 percent of the Earth's vertebrate species on only 1.4 percent of the Earth's land. Each hotspot contains its own set of unique species.
"Climate change is rapidly becoming the most serious threats to the planet's biodiversity," said Jay Malcolm, an assistant forestry professor at the University of Toronto. "This study provides even stronger scientific evidence that global warming will result in catastrophic species loss across the planet."
In the most dramatic of the scenarios, for which carbon dioxide levels grow to double that of today's levels, the models forecasted a potential loss of 56,000 plant species and 3,700 vertebrate species in the hotspots.
Such a climate scenario could become a reality in only 50 years, the study estimates.
"These species lose their last options if we allow climate change to continue unchecked," said Lara Hansen, chief climate scientist at the global conservation group World Wildlife Fund. "Keeping the natural wealth of this planet means we must avoid dangerous climate change—and that means we have got to reduce carbon dioxide emissions."
The study found that certain hotspots were especially sensitive to climate change with extinctions sometimes exceeding 2,000 plant species per hotspot. These include the Caribbean, the Tropical Andes, Cape Floristic region of South Africa, Southwest Australia, the Atlantic forests of Brazil, Paraguay, and Argentina.
The results are detailed in the journal Conservation Biology.
© 2006 LiveScience.com. All rights reserved.

for thouhgt and food of mind...very interesting

please click the link and tell me ur opinion and comment..somehow, facts and finding can be a useful knowledge and topic to be discuss in our life...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/12186080/

errrk..

first of all, i accidentaly create this blog simply because i wanted to post a comment in one of my fren's blog...never really active in blogging, but since that it is free, so will make use of this space then..anyway i find it interesting here and be part of the members in blogspot..hope i can share a lot of interesting things with all readers and bloggers..God bless all and have a nice day!