nah..waiting is too much!

i learned something yesterday, sometime waiting just cost you too much..
too much of your time..
too much of money..
too much emotion..
too much worries..
too much uncertainty..
too much thoughts..
too much prediction..
too much sweats..
too much talks..
too much pressure..
too much hope..
too much patient..
too much tensions..
too much doin nothing..
too much doin everything..
in the end, there's is only two results of waiting..the price of all the above..joy and frustration. you get joy when you got what you have been waiting for and it's worth waiting for. but frustrated, when u gain nothing after waiting for so long..(remember that it's never been short for those who are waiting, a minute can be like an hour)
so for me, i only wait for something that is worth waiting for, and sorry to the unworthy..i wont waste all of the above just for the sake nothing..hehehehhe..some friends says i'm too realistic, sometime i couldn't deny that, but i do have visions too, which is a realistic vision..hahahahha, i'm aware of probability, well i would rather calculate it first.

so friends, make sure you know what are you waiting for...have a nice day!

Enlightened by the rain..

Rain fall down..coldness surround the earth..
in the rain, I begin to think clearly..I realize that I have not try hard enough. day to day, I feel burden pressing my back. all this while I think and blame other thing, but in reality, it's all me. Now that I know, I want to make right. I learned a lot already from my past, my failure and hindrance.
my mistake has now hunting me, urging me to try harder, work harder and become wiser. sometime i feel helpless, i wanna scream. But each time God calms me..i'm thankful. i'm just human, sometime i do right, sometime i do wrong. it's a matter of choice. i need to increase my IQ level so i won't choose a wrong choice.
now that i know, i need to change, be a better person, get a better career, and live happier than ever..

turn left, turn right

i watch the movie before..quite interesting..well actually the movie has nothing to do with what i'm gonna write...
in this month, i have make few applications, now that i got options, i'm confused..somebody help me...hemm..uncertainty...my gudness i hope i'm gud at it.
well i like to gamble, but now i got commitment. as my boyfriend says think before doin something..i need to think really deep on this one. i need to get everything clear in my mind indeed for this one. i guess i want to sleep over it then tommorow come back with my decision..hehhehehhehe
need to go, catch up later..

4 years and counting..

i'm so thankful to God for all that i am today. there has been hick ups all the way, bumps, hills and slope...i believe that God has make me went thru all this so i that i become what He wants me to.

i have run away from Him so many time, yet He is there by my side all the time, never letting me go. i am now free again..

last friday nite, my heart was broken, and i was in great fear, i went into my bedroom, closing the door behind me, and i cry so hard, i can feel that my heart is crushed so as my soul. i crashed to ground zero. i cry to God..i cry all my heart out and pour everything to Him. Gently He comfort me, "now it left only you and Me" He said. then i realise that, all the heart broken and hardship i hv been thru bring me heart to heart again with God, exactly what He wants for me to do everyday.

still in tears, i ask Him "what do you want me to do Lord?" then He told me "Go to the church this Sunday" in my heart i told Him, ok i will go. Then i ask Him again, "how about other thing..my worries, my health and my problem?" He firmly said "i will take care of that for you" and i said "ok".

On Sunday, i went to the church with my boyfriend. and it is not coincident that we are having holy communion. holy communion is also actually a reminder to me for the promise i hv make to God 5 years back. So i begin to understand that God is reminding me of the promise, during the worship, slowly i was fill with holy spirit, then i can feel that God is annointing me on my forehead, then my heart, then my whole body. i feel my spirit is refreshed.. i thought that's it..this is why God ask me to go to church, but as told by the bible, we can't think as God think..the preacher yesterday teach about components of human which he continue from past week. then at the end of his teaching, he get us all,i mean the whole congregation to kneel down before God and repent for all the sin we have commited. so that day, all of us, the body of the Christ being unite in repentance. i believe everybody is being touch by God personally yesterday. and for me, God has given me a chance to start again..

and yesterday was also happen to be the anniversary of my relationship with my boyfren, well thanks to God for blessing us all this years. both of us has experience joy, happines, good time together and not forgeting bad times, problem and troubles which is normal in a relationship. But God is with us, we hope that our relationship will be a blessing to others too.

Glory to God in the highest!

spectaculars are back!!!

WORLD POOL CHAMPIONSHIP 2006 (click for official website)

now it has been four days the world pool championship happening in the Philippines, the qualifying tournaments is now stil on with eight groups competing.

i am getting crazy for this game, my favourite is from the Philippines itself, the 'magician' Efren Reyes, as he is so brilliant. not forgetting good looking Mika Immonen, plus Bustamante who is also a promising player. i hope this time the championship will be more interesting than the last time.

anyway, the young Wu chia ching (last World champion) is around too, sure the heat is getting higher :)

i know i'm not alone who crazy bout pool, friends, care to discuss bout this, do drop me msg ok!

for a living....

what do you do for a living?

what a familiar question isn't it..i believe most of my graduate frens out ther have a job or as we like to call it...career. i found out thru a lot of people, 8 out of 10 young grads are not satisfied with their post or job they are holding at his moment. and that also happen to me during my 1st year of working. i figure out now why do i feel that way..actually it is a transitional process for a person like me trying to fit in as a working adult. part from that, it is a transition from a fresh grads to fit in executive position which actually requires more of your brain and skill than during your study time.


But most of all, it is actually your choice of career and your personality. i learn from Holland's Theory of Career Choice(click to learn more) that you will likely find satisfaction in career that you choose that fit to your personality.

I couldn't agree more to this theory because the truth is happening to me now, a lot of people asking me, why am i choosing my current career,which is not related to what i have study back in university. my answer as always, this job suite me best and couldn't do better in other field. i choose my career that fit my personality, not my degree.

And i would enhance my skill and knowledge in this field ;)

uhukk..uhuk...uhukk..

my throat is so itchy, i feel uneasy in the chest, ummph cough come and visit me again.. my boyfriend and i both get bad cough for the past five days til today, he has been trying cough syrup, fisherman's friend, hacks and sterpsil to ease the sore throat. well i try that too.
on tuesday, my staff noticed that my cough is so bad, he came to me and tell me of natural cough remedy:

1. get juice out of two lime or limau kasturi
2. mix it with a teaspoon of soy souce
3. drink it straight away.
then i found this -> Natural Cough Remedy

another natural home cough remedy, few tips that u could use and it's right there in your kitchen. so we might not need to go to pharmacy or clinic to get medicines for cough next time :)

have a nice day without cough!