very talented!

being perfect

i don't know if i say this right, it is hard to become a person who others want you to be..
i believe only parents do it right when they brought us up, but when we become an adult we are also out of their hands as we can already decide for our self what we want to be..
for me, my parents had done a tremendous job in nurturing good values in me.
i am used to high expectation in my life, even though it's hard to achieve but i have tried my best, and i have no regrets bout it. i believe my family accept me as i am, even though sometimes i let them down, that's how family are.

I don't think it is fair to ask somebody to become other person by comparing that somebody with that other person, for example, they want you to be like A, and start to compare you with A. the fact is that, you are not A and i don't believe A is so perfect either. As far as i'm concern, nobody is perfect, so you have to accept other's imperfection. Stop comparing and try to accept them the way they are and be thankful for what you've got, not everybody can switch into somebody which they are not. Just encourage them for improvement, don't ask them to be somebody else. it's better off to be themselves.

i am not a good cook, but that does not mean i'm not goin to the kitchen at all.
i'm not so good with elder people, does not mean i did not respect them.
i'm not so good at home making yet, but that does not mean i'm not a good wife.
i have bad attitude, does not mean i didn't try to get rid of them.
i realize that i cannot be someone else other than myself, but one thing i know, i can make good of things that i'm not so good at. I also learn to adjust to life's circumstances, and hope others can tolerate with me too while i'm adjusting myself.

for me i learned a lesson, i have been so anxious before of trying to impress others, but the people which i try to impress so much are not too good themselves, so why should i be stressed out by this people who only know to expect the best and high demand from others while not looking in the mirror for a big splint stuck in their own eyes. i just want to live my life at my best,and be happy with it.

have a nice day my friends!

Sending back..

Yesterday, a friend of mine told me a true story that happened to a girl from a rural area. the story is like this...
one family who live in kuching go to the rural area to get a wife for their son, so they manage to pick one and both parents agreed for their child to be married to each other. after the wedding is done, the girl was brought to kuching to live with her husband's family. Then when she was there, she did not perform well as a wife, according to my friend, she hardly do any of the house chores. This attitude has cause her in laws dislike her.
Then her husband's family plan of a vacation back to her village in the rural area. i guess she must be so excited after staying with the in law for some time, finally she got to meet her family. but what happened next i guess will be the last thing on her mind, the husband's family sending her back for good, and annul her marriage with her husband.
well friends, i thought that is the meanest thing ever happened to a girl. She was married to a stranger, taken from her family, being incompetent as a wife, and the in laws plan behind her back to get rid of her, humiliate her whole family and relatives. how do you think she live her life after that??if i were to be in her place, i would probably commit suicide. Her story is being told again and again from mouth to mouth to this very day.
and what i hate the most is that, people who told the story to others is like so proud of the man's family who did tht thing to the girl, i think they must be dumb to be proud of such cruelty. And from my point of view, the man's family is coward enough to face the girl to tell her straight to her face that they don't like her, coward enough to accept her by who she is, coward enough to be responsible of their own decision of getting her married to their own son, and coward enough to teach her to be a good wife.
To that girl, i hope she will be strong, it is way better not to live with the dumbs and cowards, and to suffer because of them.
To the man's family, you claim her by marriage to be part of your family, yet you never accept/own her as part of you, don't even think that you had give her back, because you had never have her.

this is fantastic! i love it!

"Loose Canon" ...pachellbel become more fun than the original..hihihi

Blake goes to final!!!!

Top three perfom so great last night!! well the result is even great..my favourite Blake goes to final!! Melinda goes home but credits to her singing too, she's a brilliant singer..well i guess American has the same thought as i do..i was really hoping for Blake to go to final since the beginning of the show..and now my hope came true!

Now i hope Blake will be the next American Idol!!!!!

stammering children

Last night i watch Discovery Home & Health and one program that caught me..it's call "Help me to speak"
i was so move watching it, it make me realize how difficult it was to communicate if a child is stammering. the program shows that speech therapy could help this stammering children. i am really move to help children with stammering problem. i wonder if we have a community or support group in our country that actually help stammers children..friends, if u know any, please let me know.

anyway, if u don't have any idea what stammering is..this might help u understand:
http://www.stammering.org/generalinfo.html

sunny day

on sunday, i wash my owen, hang him outside to dry, but unlucky for him yesterday while i was in the office in the morning, it was raining heavily, so he was wet again..thanks to God, today is bright and sunny, so i guess i can hug owen when i sleep tonite..owen was a gift from my mom when i got offer from college in 2001. i really love him..my mom is the best hihi..

Yesterday, in the afternoon, i'm not feeling well, so i went back and rest at home. i work for half day, feel sorry to my staffs tho..coz left only a few in the office, others went on leave (committee release after Borneo Games).

i feel so blessed today for so many reason, and i hope others also feel the same..

Petronas Borneo Games

alright, The Petronas Borneo Games held in Bintulu this year, our venue host three 3 major games, Badminton, Tennis and Dart.

Officially kicked off today early in the morning, and right now there's a lot of people outside my office and around our venue. they hv been coming here since wednesday.

contigents from all over sabah, sarawak and W.P Labuan(which is form of Petronas staff in this three region)has been here since yesterday, and we are proud to welcome them, it's like meeting members of a very big family.

my staffs are all been busy since last week for the preparation of this Games, and some of them has been on standby since monday..kasihan, double the jobs. But it is excited to see the responds to this event. This event will close on monday next week, and we have a lot of fun activities coming up during this 4 days event, and also special artist perfomances.

so for all petronas staff in Borneo, enjoy this Borneo Games!

Have a nice day y'all!

a blessing from the other side of the world..

yesterday, while i was so bored waiting for an important email from our auditor, i browse thru few blogs..then i found this.. Angie's Blog
i read thru her blog, and she remind me of myself back then. i love to write things just as she wrote while i was in college.
Thanks to God for the blessing, i know it's not a coincidence to find her blog, and God is reminding me of His wonderful love again.

ok, have anice day everyone and God bless everybody!

empty

i'm going thru an emptyness right now, i don know, it's just happen, somehow, when i work, i feel empty, when go back home it feels so empty, i'm so bored. can't help it. each day, i was thinking hard what to do to get rid of this feeling. it's not that i have nothing to do, but it's just feels that way. it's like something is missing in my life. excitement, yeah i have no life excitement. maybe it's due to my life situation now..i'm stagnant. i can't move forward, and definitely i don't wanna turn back. people always say, live life one day at a time, but for me it's like living life one hour at a time..it feels so long. how i wish it was like in the fantasy world where i can just sleep thru this time today and wake up in the 2 or 3 months in the future.
and while writing this post, i have already yawn the third time..my gudness! i'm tired of all this..

cool..

i saw cip andy do this on his page, so i decided to try too..here's what i got ;)

horrify..

last week, a beaten up man was dump at a secluded area behind my house.

that morning, as i was washing my car, while my darling (still on his vacation here last week) was cutting the grass at the compound, suddenly a man called up asking for phone, my darling ask why does he need it, and he says, " a man got beaten up behind there, i saw him when i jog there just now, we need to call the police and make a report, he got blood all over him". we ask him where was the man, not long after that, a man, almost naked (he got only his underwear and his watch on his body) with blood all over his body, and smashed face wobbling towards the main road in front of my house. The guy who call us earlier go to him telling that we are calling the police and not to move coz he is in a terrible injuries.

i called up police station, and make the report, the police are on the way. while waiting for the police to come, my darling went together with some other neighbour asking the man what actually happen. "saya orang penang bang..kerja kapal, berlabuh kat port kat atas, mlm tadi turun bandar nak pegi minum dengan kawan..." he said. according to him, after he and a friend having drink at town, some other man promise to send him back to the port, it was past 1am already when they make a move to send him back, but instead of sending him back to the port, the 4 men beat him and took his wallet, clothes, shoes, and all other thing that he got on his body except his watch and his underwear. they dump him there and beat him some more before left.

my darling took one of his khaki pants, gave it to him to put on. poor guy, he got no ID, money, and furthermore, he came from accross the ocean. eventhough there is nothing much that we can do to help him but we were glad that at least we know the police can help him and he was sent to the hospital straight away, after the police saw him. well, this town i'm living now is not really a safe place to live especially at my housing area.

in merely one year plus living here, my house was broken in, my next door neighbour got arrested by police for a serious crime, rape case at the same secluded area, and now somebody got beaten up there..uhhh..this world is getting bad than ever.

food indulgence

for the last weekend till wednesday, i really allow myself to eat.
the chowdown feast begin on saturday..
after picking up my darling from the airport..we start with a little picnic by the seaside.
our menu:
Nasi lemak (he brought from KL, my fav wangsa maju nasi lemak)
BBQ chicken wings (his "must have" menu)
BBQ bishop nose (his fav)
Air tebu (our fav)
and off course some munchy junk food haha

Sunday
breakfast: before sunday service begin
kolok mee, mi goreng basah, teh c and teh peng

Lunch: after service
salad chicken rice, ice lemon tea, and iced tea

Dinner: at aunty house together with Ja'a do and Ja'a ke
meat, fried chicken, egg plant, vege, fish, soup and sambal not to forget rice.

Monday
i'm on leave, so the major activity of the day is eating hahhahha,
we have kuih muih, roasted chicken, chicken curry, vege lots of them, meat, fish and of course rice, and all those food with tons of calories from morning till night.

Tuesday (Labour day)
more exciting, we are having BBQ at aunty house, so i ate seriously a lot!!!

Wednesday (wesak day)
i can't take it anymore..so i stop, back to normal eating portion..then send my darling back to the airport, and after he left, i start to jog again...huh..

then on thursday and today, i find that eating a lot has got into me, i tend to eat a lot in these two days..uh oh..help!! hopefully its not raining this evening, coz seriously, i need to jog!